Brushing My Daughters Hair Until We Achieve Balance

BALANCE AND STRUCTURE

FRESH OUT OF A WARM BATH,  I GRAB A BRUSH  & DETANGLE MY DAUGHTERS HAIR WITH QUICK, FIERCE MOVEMENTS.

I THINK... THE QUICKER, THE BETTER.

I POISE MY DAUGHTERS POSITIONING, ASKING HER TO STRENGTHEN HER BACK, AND STRAIGHTEN HER NECK.

 SHE CRIES TO ME

IT HURTS

 MEMORIES OF THE DAYS I SAT BETWEEN MY MOTHER REPEATING THE SAME MOTIONS

I CAN'T HELP BUT REMEMBER

HOW MISERLY I DID FEEL.

BUT

 HOW DO I FEEL NOW AND HOW DOES SHE FEEL?

THE STRUCTURE OF MY DAUGHTERS HAIR IS OF A COMPLEX NATURE, AND AS A HAIR DRESSER, I STILL FIND HER TOUSLES OF HAIR TO BE A CHALLENGE.


CONFUSION

WHY MUST THIS BE, AS I RIP THE BRUSH THROUGH.

THIS DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE.

I SEE NO EASY WAY AROUND THIS

I FIND NO SOLUTION.

ALLOWING MY DAUGHTER TO EXPRESS HER CONCERN, I LISTEN WITH AN CAREFUL EAR.

WHAT IS REALLY GOING ON HERE.  

WHAT IS SHE TRULY EXPERIENCING.



RELEASE

AGES OF SONGS UNHEARD, AND CRIES THAT NEVER ESCAPED.

WALES OF PAIN 
IGNORED, AND  REJECTED BY MANY MOTHERS BEFORE ME.

WHY DIDN'T I LISTEN BEFORE,

WHY DON'T I HEAR WHAT MY DAUGHTER IS SAYING?

SHHHHH!

TIME HAS PASSED AND THIS TIME... I AM PROFOUNDLY STILL

 WITH AWARENESS OF OUR PROCESS

 EMBARKING ON THIS AGE OLD JOURNEY

EMOTIONS FLARING WITH DESPAIR

BUT WITH EVERY HANDLE THE PAIN EASES 

MY DAUGHTER FEELS RELIEVED.  

SAFE.

REFRESHED.

STRUCTURED AND BALANCED.

WE FEEL THE TENSION RELEASE WITH EACH PASS OF THE BRUSH
  

OUR OWN HIDDEN PAINS BURIED FROM A CHILDHOOD ONCE PAST,

 NO LONGER HERE.

MAGIC

I WORK MY MOTHERS MAGIC AND SOOTHE MY BABY GIRL, ASSURING HER THAT THE DISCOMFORT HAS CEASED.

SURE ENOUGH WITH EACH PULL SHE FEELS AN EASE, NOT PRESENT BEFORE.

WE ARE BOTH SATISFIED.

A LITTLE PAIN TO PURIFY THE REPRESSIONS, IGNORED LONG AGO.  

ENERGY HAS A WAY OF SCREECHING THE WALLS ONCE DISTURBED

BUT AS WE DUST THE SHELVES OF OUR MIND 

AND MELD AT THE HEART CENTER.

MEETING WITH BOTH HEART AND MIND 

UNDERSTANDING OF THE HEALING ACHIEVED.

WE DID GOOD TODAY ADDIE.

I SUPPOSE YOU FEEL LIGHTENED LIKE A FEATHER.

WONDERFUL.

I SEAL YOUR AURA WITH THE LOVE OF A MOTHER , AND SQUEEZE YOU WITH REASSURANCE AND COMPASSION.

WHEW.

WE MADE IT.

THANK YOU

I LOVE YOU LITTLE GIRL.

I'LL WALK BY YOU FOREVER.

GOD BLESS

💋

MOTHER J.ACK

MOM

x

-JANIECE GABRIEL